At age 13 I was playing with gasoline and suddenly I found myself on fire. The first time I looked myself in the mirror at the hospital I saw a monster. A few years later I joined my politically engaged sister to their summer camp, at Utøya and brought my best friends to join for what turned out to be a nightmare. I saw I girl killed in front of me by a man dressed like police and we fled in fear. I had several encounters with him and survived, but 69 people did not make it. See how I found love for myself again when I realized that I was not the only one, at a “burn camp”, and how I started to use training to shape my body. Learn how my sister and I helped each other through the grief and trauma, but also how openness and support from family and friends got us through it. Today I use both my experiences to tour Norway and talk to youth about the importance of loving yourself for who you are. This is my story.