The Human Aspect of Shiggi
I sent the little child inside of me to the panic room because I felt it wasn’t safe for her out here. Growing up I felt that no matter what I did it never measured up to my mother's expectations. This left me with a feeling of not being loved and I suppressed my emotions to focus on surviving. Years later my mother came to stay with me and our frustrations escalated into a shocking physical fight. This completely broke down our relationship and when she died by suicide I was left in shock. Especially since I had contemplated the same thoughts myself a few times in my darkest moments.
I sent the little child inside of me to the panic room because I felt it wasn’t safe for her out here. Growing up I felt that no matter what I did it never measured up to my mother's expectations. This left me with a feeling of not being loved and I suppressed my emotions to focus on surviving. Years later my mother came to stay with me and our frustrations escalated into a shocking physical fight. This completely broke down our relationship and when she died by suicide I was left in shock. Especially since I had contemplated the same thoughts myself a few times in my darkest moments.